"Now, Jim, I think it would help a lot if you told me exactly what happened. Don't you?" maybe i dunno i dont want to "Come on, Jim. You can trust me." i dunno i i i "Why don't you tell me what happened?" oh i dunno oh alright i dunno its difficult where do i start i dunno "Why not start at the beginning? Who was there, and what happened?" well theres me an costick and eric i dont like eric an theres john an dave an an an i think thats it yeah thats it "Good, Jim. There was you and those four. Now, what did you do?" well we all hang around together you know an do stuff we get into trouble all the time but were only having a laugh you know we hang around yeah mostly in mr kelmans cupboard under the stairs mr kelmans ok hes the caretaker you know but he doesnt like us he calls us the sheep he says we always do whatever costick says he says were sheep your all sheep thats what he says cos if costick told us to jump off a cliff would we do it but we never jump off a cliff cept that time when we jump over the river down the woods that was really good an dave doesnt want to jump hes scared hes a wuss an then he falls in an then hes all muddy in class an mr plumb tells him off for dripping in his classroom mr plumbs funny "You were saying about Mr Kelman's cupboard ..." oh yeah mr kelman he says were sheep he doesnt really like us but we hang around in his cupboard an we smoke an we have a laugh an all that an we hang around in the projection room in the hall yeah we hang around in the projection room in the hall its a really good room its full of all this old gear an stuff you go up all the steps to the hall balcony an then up more steps an we hang around an look out of the small windows into the hall an smoke and hang around an they pick on me an i hate it an they pick on me an pick on me an pick on me an hit me they hit me an they hit me they always hit me an all of a sudden ive had enough i wait until they stop i go out of the projection room an i shut the door i shut them in they cant get out they cant get me i shut them in an lock the door big padlock big as my fist an they all shout an hammer on the door an i say nothing an they shout an i say nothing an costick says you better bloody open the door jimmy you bastard you better open this fucking door jimmy jimmy an i say nothing mr kelman says were all sheep but im not a sheep i dont do what costick says he says fucking let me out jimmy i say nothing an i dont let him out theyre all sheep im not a sheep the sheep are all in the projection room im outside an i dont let the sheep out an john hammers on the door hes losing it i dont like john he hits me my mouth really hurts because i have to wear this stupid brace which hurts an john takes the piss and i shout at him because my mouth hurts an john loses it an hits me right in the mouth this stupid braces cut my lips where john hits me i bleed all over the floor an in my mouth its all salty god it hurts an john is in the projection room an i dont let him out an eric kicks the door eric punches me an kicks me on the ground an he pulls me up an tears my jumper an my mum goes ballistic its your only jumper oh jimmy how could you how could you you know weve no money youre just as bad as your dad you know that youre a waster a total waster you hear me useless bloody child eric winds me up an eric tells lies an he does stuff an says i did it an i get in trouble an i say hes lying an i get in more trouble an eric is in the room an i dont let him out an dave whimpers hes a bloody wimp hes always whinging hes ok i suppose he gets me in trouble cos he cant run fast he says no wait an then i get caught he cant run i dont let him out either theyre all in the room an im not in the room an i think about them theyre sheep theyre bloody sheep the lot of them but im not a sheep an john hits me in the mouth an eric kicks me an i have had enough i sit outside the projection room for a long long time an costick an eric an john an dave are inside an its locked an i look at the big padlock an the door rattles but its shut its a very strong door actually an i get a fag out an i get my lighter out i like my lighter its a present from my dad its a zippo lighter eric says its not a real zippo but it is an i light my lighter its on fire i look at the fire an i dont light my fag i sit an i think an i look at the fire an i look at the door i light my fag an i smoke my fag an i think an i get up an go to mr kelmans cupboard an i get the can of petrol for the lawnmower dont you go messing about with that its dangerous its heavy its a big can i take the can to the projection room i go back to mr kelmans cupboard an i get the funnel for pouring the petrol i pour petrol under the door an costick an john an eric an dave shout at me fucking let us out jimmy an eric says fucking hell its petrol an it comes out from under the door an its all over the floor i pour it on the door an on the walls an they say fucking hell for chrissakes let us out jesus jimmy an i dont let them out an i lie the can on its side an i go to the steps im so excited i take out my lighter an i look at my lighter its my zippo an costick an john an eric an dave are in there an i look at the petrol on the floor an i look at my lighter an i dont let them out they bang on the door jimmy jimmy jimmy jimmy jimmy an i light my lighter jimmy jimmy jimmy jimmy an i look at my zippo flame jimmy jimmy jimmy an i look at the door jimmy jimmy an i dont let them out jimmy an i light the petrol an god its hot its on fire! i run an run an run down the steps i just go go go an out the door an on the grass i stop i cant breathe im done for im screaming its dark i fall on the grass its cold an wet its dark my face is all hot an my arm is all hot an god it hurts i fall on the grass its cold on my face my face is hot my arm is hot its all dark its very dark an then its crackling its crackling an popping an i get up an its dim an red an orange an yellow its glowing an go to it an its all hot an god my face hurts i look at it an its just red an orange an yellow an its hot an i look at my feet an its just black an i look at my hands an its just black an i look everywhere an its just black except the fire the fire the fire the fire is orange and god its hot im screaming again christ i cant see i cant see i go around i go but i fall over an it hurts an i cant see an its all on fire an im on fire an i cant see an an an an it goes on for ever an im staggering an then theres sirens an theres fire engines an theres people an someone says jesus get an ambulance theres a kid here hes burned an i try to go to them but its all hot an god it hurts an its all crackling an crackling an then its very dark again i i i i dunno its a good fire a good fire yeah i never seen them again ha ha "Thank you for telling me all that, Jimmy. Why wouldn't you say about this before?" i dunno i errr god its hot my face is all hot its all orange i dunno "It was a long time ago, wasn't it?" i dunno a bit "Jimmy. It was more than ... twenty years ago. I think I'll just ... I ... " your crying i can tell your sniffling i can feel your cheeks theyre all wet you wuss
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